“First, all I could see was this beautiful face, this beautiful girl’s face; like a white, slightly luminous mask, swimming detachedly against enfolding darkness. As if a little private spotlight of its own was trained on it from below. It was so beautiful and so false, and I seemed to know it so well, and my heart was wrung.
There was no danger yet, just this separate, shell-like face mask standing out. But there was danger somewhere around, I knew that already; and I knew that I couldn’t escape it. I knew that everything [ was about to do, I had to do, I couldn’t avoid doing. And yet, oh, I didn’t want to do it. I wanted to turn and flee, I wanted to get out of wherever this was.”