I’ve always wanted to travel and explore different cities through my career, sounds like a dream but I’ve never done it when I was in a relationship of 11 years. Yes it sounds ridiculous but it’s true. I was madly in love with a man who I thought was a perfect guy, I chose University to be close, I move town and cities to be where his jobs are. I sacrifices many of my goals in life but I find relationship was worth saving because love was my goal. Years went by there were no sign of marriage or future kids discussion, 11 years you’d thought it would happen right? We did joke about it but never had serious conversation. We always have a laugh everyday because we live and focus on pure joy of our relationship but no future plan.
Last year by the end of Autumn, I caught him cheated on me twice. I was devastated, felt betrayal and very heartbroken. My whole body was electrify with anger and revenge. So I decided to end the relationship and stay as friends. He was my best friend for 11 years and we’re each other’s first love. On the back of my mind, I know this day would come but wouldn’t believe it.
The pain was the gift. I realized now that without the pain he’s given, I wouldn’t be able to end the relationship. I always look for solution, but this feeling can’t be fix and the trust is not there..
I knew I have to let go.
Now I did it..
With this freedom of singleton in my hand, I’ve never felt so happy and liberated! I’ve always wanted to move to London and I did it regardless of high living expense. I just want to live and follow my dream I want to pursue. I was very lucky through my freelance job that I get to traveled to turkey and Amsterdam within 5 months which is amazing! I pick up great knowledge from my sale and marketing job in London and met many great people along the way. Till this day, I meditate and pray thank you for this experience; the good, the bad and the ugly. Shit happens, but that shit can be a gift whether you can see it or not!