I am slowly getting into my old routine although it is far from perfect. Whilst not entirely being back to my usual 5.30 am rise, I’m pushing for the 6 am. I meditate as usual, in front of the fireplace, and I find I need it more than ever. By this time I know it almost by heart, Aurelius’ advice touching my lips as a mantra. I find it even useful during the day when words like fair, ethics, doing what is right, seems so far off the grid that I have a hard time even seeing their traces.

“Begin each day by telling yourself: Today I shall be meeting with interference, ingratitude, insolence, disloyalty, ill-will, and selfishness – all of them due to the offenders’ ignorance of what is good or evil. But for my part I have long perceived the nature of good and its nobility, the nature of evil and its meanness, and also the nature of the culprit himself, who is my brother (not in the physical sense, but as a fellow creature similarly endowed with reason and a share of the divine); therefore none of those things can injure me, for nobody can implicate me in what is degrading. Neither can I be angry with my brother or fall foul of him; for he and I were born to work together, like a man’s two hands, feet or eyelids, or the upper and lower rows of his teeth. To obstruct each other is against Nature’s law – and what is irritation or aversion but a form of obstruction.”

The old adage, “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” rings equally loud and true. I pull up these maxims to get me through the day, until it seems an impossible task….and then there is always…“Tomorrow is another day”