Monthly Archives: July 2012

I found this brilliant song called Paris – Friendly Fires. It remindes of my favourite city so much and the million reasons I want to make France my home one day – my little Day Dream that keeps me going when I need something to lift my spirit. Luckily, I don’t need much day dreaming at the moment, because where I am it’s 35 degrees and sunshine (what more can you ask for?). It’s meant to be a boosting holiday and I’ve been capitilizing on it: healthy breakfast consisting of grapefruit, scramble eggs and sallad, daily gym sessions, evening walks and loads of fun with the kids. It’s good – I’m happy to be back on the island!

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…comes in so many shapes and forms. Such as sitting by the sea shore, listening to endless waves crashing in. Specs of salty drops land on my feet reminding me of my solitude. Because here is no one to bother me – no musts, no buts, just me and the sea.

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I wake up just as the sun starts to rise. It’s a beautiful morning. The air is still crisp before the summer heat will take over. I am tired, yet I can’t sleep. My heart finds no rest, and a pressing pain within my chest will not remove itself from the cavity of my ribcage. My thoughts, remnants of the last days events, are painfully making themselves known.

I know who I am. I know what I want. I know what I am worth.

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Dear Reinout,

I can’t profess that I know how to write the definitive love letter. I believe I have made a few attempts before but they have not been so good…in hindsight. But still it’s important I put these thoughts into words. Let me start with the classical one – I love you. A lot. How does one define love? Well let me start by explaining the symptoms: When things are good, it’s such a euphoric, amazing feeling that it obliterates everything else. There is nothing else. And conversely nothing else exists. Because everything that makes you work, sleep, eat, socialize are not important. Only two people exist – and those two have now become one.

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