Reinout woke me up this morning, which was just as well as my chest was literally bursting and Sebastian was hungry. He then made me a banana shake and coffee for breakfast. As I was sitting in bed, reading and then writing, Reinout started dropping hints about being ready at 10 am. Ready for what I thought to myself?
2 minutes before 10 he said “Have you forgotten our plan to start exercising?” Of course I hadn’t but I had no idea it was starting this early. I quickly pulled on some training gear. Reinout commanded me to put my feet together and stand on my toes. He asked me, “Do you think you have balance?” The answer is pretty simple to that question, it’s “no”. 30 seconds later I did have a hard time keeping my balance. Then he asked me to carefully go down, bending my knees whilst still standing on my toes and then hold the position, for what could have been a minute but felt like 10. Lactic acid was at this point flowing freely through my legs, and I felt I was cramping up. Then I had to lift up one leg, which was easier said than done. I lost my balance all together.
Next exercise was even worse, yet extremely effective. I had to raise my arms sideways and keep them there straight. I felt I did pretty well until a point came when I started to cramp. It made me completely light headed. In the meantime Reinout kept on going at me. “Keep your position, think of it as you are carrying Sebastian, if you drop your arms you drop him too. You don’t want to drop your son do you?” I kept on cursing inside of my head. It hurt, it was gruelling, but I hate to give up. In the end I just had to. According to Reinout, I didn’t. It’s all in my mind and I have no discipline over it – yet. I buy that completely.
In fact everything he said makes sense. Everything starts with balance, and it’s something I don’t have at the moment…inner and outer balance. Physically and mentally. But I am prepared to learn, whatever it takes. Of course easier said than done, because am I really prepared to go beyond breaking point? Time shall tell….